premonition

back in 2016/2017 when i still live in slipi, in a weekend afternoon (probably sunday). this cross my mind, "what if my dad's died?" just like that. i remember it was a sunny day, i was sitting facing my windows, playing with my phone. i had not watch any sad movie the night before.

and automatically, with my creative imagination, i cried. for real. i pour it all out. the crying part feels natural, since i can really imagine what its gonna be.

but how could 'that' even cross my mind?

out of blue.

is it premonition?