finding a song

 back in 2011 T.O.P was starred in a Calvin Klein Jeans ads.

i was mesmerized by the ads. the visual, T.O.P voice and the song. the song is definitely the thing that hold them together. i remember i tried to find the song title for days, even several weeks and months later. i also reading the comment section, hoping i would find someone would tell what is the title of the song. nothing.

i keep coming back every now and then to check or to just listen to the song again. it has this chillin cozy vibes. especially when i'm traveling, the silent vibes of the roads you keep passing by would always remind me of this song/ads.

i've been writing the lyric on google but i never find the song either. its actually quite frustrating, i mean, in this day and age, how come you can not find it on google?

i actually give up years ago, thinking the song is tailor made for this ads only (whoever made the song/the singer never release the song). accepting if i want to listen to the song then i would just play this ads.

years go by...

i was about to post a tiktok video about my trip. it was a short simple car ride video. i was going through some sound selections for a while and finally decide, none of them will fit. only this T.O.P Calvin Klein Jeans ads that would fit the vibes. i went to great lengths. i tried to find the song on google, scan the comments, still nothing. i know i would just download the audio and put in my video.

i did. post it. feeling satisfied, moving on.

days if not a week later, when i look closely, tiktok tells you that the video contains music from: Feel Like Dying, Pt. 2 - Tom Howe & Mike Reed & Matthew James Robertson). of course i type that on google and search!

a spotify link on top, click, voila, ITS THE SONG!!! 

I FIND THE SONG!

i find the song 12 years later lol, unexpectedly!

here is the song: https://open.spotify.com/track/5gcrMonF1LjoahkZRqzAND

i've been listening to it on repeat since. 

Feel Like Dying, Pt. 2

don't hold back
don't look down
its all the same

leave this town
don't come back
forget my name

cause i feel like dying tonight
and it feels like nothing is right

close your eyes
its nothing here
all alone

touch my skin
i'm cold inside
take me home

cause i feel like dying tonight
and it feels like nothing is right

cause i feel like dying tonight
and it feels like nothing is right