wolfie wolf

it's been... years...

man, how come you keep make me feel some kind a way? this is unfair.

kemaren habis dari pameran alutsista, ada banyak tank yang dipajang, orang bisa foto di depannya, bahkan masuk dan naik ke atasnya. 

belum lama ini gw ngimpi. gak jelas awalnya gimana, tapi kaya seolah-olah gw ada di mimpi yang gak seharusnya gw ada di situ. idk, there's some weird vibes. bukan perasaan yang kuat juga sih, tapi kerasa aja gw harusnya gak ada di situ. ada lomba tank (?) now that i think about it, maybe its a tank fair, idk. trus ada banner gede dengan beberapa nama dia. weird, biasanya gw gabisa baca dalam mimpi. trus tau-tau dia ada di sebelah kanan gw, gw kaget, kayanya dia juga kaget. trus mimpinya ganti ke scene lain. tiba-tiba gw lagi jalan sama Mama. nothing weird / off sejak ganti scene. lomba / pameran tank tadi aneh banget bahkan setelah bangun gw masih inget jelas.

anyway... mungkin karna itu gw jadi kepikiran...

Twice mau konser di Jakarta, tadinya gw mau sok-sok-an menawarkan bantuan buat ngewar tiket, tapi gak usah lah, let it be~

beberapa hari ini lagi mager makan apalagi buat makan yang bener. semalem order shopeefood udah last minute, abang drivernya punya nama yang sama, jadi nempel deh itu nama semaleman.

seharian ini sebenernya udah gak kepikiran, tapi sore tadi gw kepikiran buat post foto makanan random yang ada di galeri buat selingan, bagaimanapun stok video gw kayanya gak cukup (capek juga harus ngedit dulu), gw scroll gallery dari bawah...

nemu ss, 

gw: love is not a sin (refer to video doyoung di weekly idol)

x: it is not, but distracting my goal

i realize now that he is quite straightforward and i was just not understand it. he made a "i only care about my game" persona very well, he made me think he is not wise enough for his age. 

i believe his parent was too busy when he was young so he had some trust issue. he lost his mother when he is young and his father is old, so he had to take care of his younger siblings, what a burden. altough he would not think of it as a burden. he will say its an honor. i can understand why he said he won't be married until at least he is in his 40s. 

*sigh*

i can not believe i understand the math behind it.

by his 40s his youngest sibling will be 35, i think that is enough age for him to let his youngest sibling go.

its been years yet this person keeps making me interested. 미치겠다.

he is wiser than me, that is why he is so interesting. that is why i gravitate towards him.

i would never understand this if i don't loose my father. i guess this my plot of story. i hope our time will cross each other in the future...